Member Post: We Aren't Returning to Source, We Never Left Source... part 1

Member Post: We Aren't Returning to Source, We Never Left Source... part 1 Hello and Thank you for being here in the Members area, where we go deeper into the core structures of our Source energy. Here, together we are supporting the highest light with those who care most about it. I came across something earlier this morning on my social media discussing consciousness and it said we are returning to Source. On many levels this feels so good, doesn't it? It helps us be hopeful of at some point feeling connected again to Source, sort of like returning to your residence after a trip. Earth can be a trip. But we didn't leave our residence, in Source. This truth is perhaps the most important acknowledgment for you claiming your Source energy while human: You never left Source... although your human consciousness can feel like it did. Feeling as if you left and need to return to Source is a distorted but understandable perception that we can have from here. And, thankfully, we don't need to have this distortion any more. Because the minute I heard that line ("we are returning to Source"), I knew something was off about it. And with the Soul Signatures that you and I are, we seem to be tuned for noticing distortions like this. When we identify what is off and we then resume the truth codes, our human consciousness can claim its true, inherent connection to Source Energy, eternally and here. We aren't returning to Source, because we never left Source. When we incarnate, we (as our Eternal Selves) are deciding to create a form suitable for an Earth journey. Obviously we chose the human form, because here we are. At that deciding and some other related options, we join this reality, having been 1) created directly from our Source energy and 2) having made several key choices about the experience (birth date/time, birth location, human parents, even our human birth name)* With respect to point 2, these types of choices create a sort of baseline scene for our journey. They matter (pun!). The possibilities for the Eternal Self here are almost endless. Will the life start from March 13 3,504 BC or Dec. 1 of 3,000 AD? Any birth "time" can be chosen since the Eternal Self is beyond time... Will the birthplace be in rural China or in a metropolis in Canada? The choosing of parents is also a decision. With any parenting decision there must be mutual agreement on our part and theirs. This is true of birth parents and raising "parents", in the cases of adoption or other changes/transfers of parenting roles. Sometimes we even have back up parental figures arranged by our Eternal Selves that may end up in our lives as God parents, that very special Aunt, favorite Grandfather or even close friends parents that always felt like another parent. Each Eternal Self has their own style and preference for how much detail, research and scenario analysis they go into. A metaphor here is the type of person that packs for a vacation 3 weeks before the trip and the person that tosses what they need in a bag the night before departure. Both systems work. We can consider potential parents based on multiple variables. The factors provided may be based on probabilities and possible scenarios of the parents and even ourselves, as we can peek into "times" within the potential life, forward, backward. These evaluations of possible incarnations can be imagined as flashes of possible scenarios if we pick those parents, that timeline, that birth place, that name, etc. They aren't definite scenarios because free will allows for such a wide degree of possible change within the life for the parents, for you as "their" child and everyOne else they may encounter. Even those flashes provided during pre-incarnation planning may not happen, or not in that exact way shown. Free will in action. And the Eternal Self knows this. I feel some of your Eternal Selves saying, "it never hurts to plan, but that doesn't mean it is going to go that way." Our Eternal Selves may be considering whether the parents will likely be: generally pleasant or overall stressed and unhappy, somewhat affluent or financially destitute, likely to: divorce, never marry, single parent household, orphan, two parent household devoted, involved parent(s) or quite uninvolved highly educated or not reaching high school (if the timeline even has such formal education), quite physically healthy or high probability of disease and even requiring our care, and on and on ~ so many variables can be considered, none of them certain but all of them worth considering. Notice that with each variable and each option within each variable there is a wide spectrum of pros and cons. There can be wonderful, beneficial reasons for choosing all of them. I appreciate that on the surface it may seem so obvious, for example, that everyone would choose to have financially stable parents. But, there are pros and cons to even this. Choosing parents of meager financial means can offer distraction from material possessions, which that Eternal Self may value, in general. Conversely, choosing parents of extreme wealth could also offer distractions from material possessions, since that individual may be even more likely to take them for granted (not be possessed by the possessions). Choosing parents of financial stability can provide a life that is more capable of funding education pursuits and making a name for One's self in a field that warrants credibility like a PhD, which that Eternal Self may find useful for that life experience and offering something new and different to the world. No matter the Eternal Self planning, they cannot control how their human will or will not be influenced by the factors chosen, nor how things will eventually proceed. In this example of economics, fortunes can be lost, and fortunes can be made. The Eternal self energy, some pre-life planning combined with Free will of self and others, luck or lack thereof, responsiveness or lack thereof, consciousness or lack thereof are some of the key factors that play into what ends up making a life. Let's go deeper into an example. Let's consider an Eternal Self that chose quite detached, uninvolved parents who have their own busy and meaningful lives. Let's call this Eternal Self's human Greg. Let's imagine that as their human, at 44 years young, Greg encounters a phase of feeling a bit lost. Sort of a mid-life crisis. He comes across his first metaphysical concepts. Greg can't remember if it was the movie "What the Bleep do we know?" or the book "The Secret" or something else but he remembers it set him on a path of searching. It makes him feel that there is something bigger, and that it is out there, not inside and certainly not within his present way of making a living. Greg becomes disenchanted with his Engineering profession. He no longer feels pride in the fact that he has always been amazingly gifted at all things technical. His patents and what it offers the world feel unfulfilling. None of it feels spiritual enough. Greg is certain no one's Soul chooses to be passionate about engineering and technology. It is clear to Greg that souls only incarnate to evolve themselves, to get closer to God (return to Source), to help save the planet and humanity and to help humanity awaken, by awakening the self. Greg leaves his career. He is also no longer interested in his life partner, David, because David isn't interested in spirituality nor awakening. Greg feels he has been doing everything wrong in his life up until his now becoming spiritual. He is now focused, almost solely/soul-ly (pun!), on his awakening, his healing himself from the damage caused by his parents neglecting him, and on his healing his clearly broken genetic codes. Greg is passionate and serious about this and is certain this type of work is what everyone should be doing. He meditates and spends considerable time helping humanity and Earth's ascension. Greg's need for healing is based on his view that his parents didn't care about him, didn't make time for him and were completely self-absorbed and even selfish. Greg is trying now as an adult to feel special, loved and that he matters. He feels his parents didn't do their job in this regard and he has some unconscious resentment about this which also needs clearing. Greg's Eternal Self is sincerely compassionate with Greg's plight. And, the Eternal Self has a very different perspective on the entire situation. Greg's Eternal self has the advantage of knowing that those parents were actually chosen, "hand picked"... not for lessons it needed, not for any potential pain caused by being a "forgotten child." Rather, the Eternal Self knows that it chose those parents for its Greg because of how busy and purposeful the parents each were likely to be in their own lives! Greg may completely shift his perspective if he knew that as his Eternal Self he** wanted his Greg to have ample time to himself in his youth for creating, being and exploring from its own One, without unnecessary distractions. The Eternal Self had pre-wired into his Greg gifts for technology, engineering and invention. He knew from his pre-incarnation research that other parents in that time span seemed overly involved in their kid's lives, not allowing most children to spend hours on their own... taking apart and putting back together the toasters, tv's and computers. Greg may see things (may see himSelf) totally differently if he knew this, yes? Greg doesn't see this and he isn't taking into account that his parents weren't neglectful; they provided ample food, shelter, clothing as well as many opportunities for engagement in their free time. But, Greg would choose whenever possible to be alone with tech, gadgets and projects. What a huge disconnect in perception! Sigh. And it's all ok. Greg's Eternal Self knows that as the Eternal Self, he is whole and complete, always. He wishes his Greg knew this, too. But, the Eternal Self understands that on Earth, there is no set outcome and even the best laid plans can turn out in an unhappy situation. Even in this case with Greg, where a completely different perspective (the Eternal Self's) could help Greg step into the divine planning and purpose of him being here, on Earth, as Greg, being exactly what he is and has been. The Eternal Self isn't laughing at Greg nor is it worried that Greg is seeing things so differently than it is. Any Eternal Self knows that Earth, and particularly humanity, is the ultimate wild card experience. Even with the most savvy planning and choosing, the human has many, many options for being off center from the Eternal Self's truth. Indeed, this is probable, especially within a less conscious time span on Earth. Opportunity for all of us: when we align with our Eternal Self's truths we can better sense/trust/know our inherent connection to Source, Creator, God. Truths. Truths like the Eternal Self is fully ascended, requires no further training nor experiences to become whole and complete. The Eternal Self as Source energy is always whole and complete. Let's repeat that: Always whole and complete ~ even when it is having a human experience. Potential questions: So Greg didn't need to leave his engineering profession nor its nice pay check? True, he did not. And did Greg need to pull away from his life partner that wasn't also a seeker/trying to awaken? True, he did not need to pull away; there was real love there and they both offered mutual benefit, joy and caring to each other. And did Greg even need to begin any spiritual seeking, since his Eternal Self is already whole, complete and fully ascended? True, Greg, and no human, needs to have any awakening, seeking, re-connection experience, for all life is eternally and inherently whole and complete at the soul level, no matter what the human experience looks like, or doesn't look like. Then why do we come to Earth? Why even come if the Soul doesn't need humanity to reach ascending levels of enlightenment? Whey even be human if it isn't to save humanity or to rescue Mother Earth***? For number 4, this is a natural next question for many, often expressed with a sense of disillusionment... as if there would be no reason to incarnate if it wasn't to save, rescue, enlighten others. Notice that underneath that structure is a sense that humanity is lost, that Earth is off track and that someOne needs to come and fix it... in other words we need a Savior! Ironic, isn't it, that many who are having enlightenment**** journeys walked away from organized religions that had a savior, only to step into seemingly upgraded teachings that ended up also promoting the concept of a savior? Earth is so strange, and beautiful. Please give yourself a hug if this is triggering to you in any way. We are handing you an upgrade to the concept of Sovereignty, one without the notion of an external savior. And for some the awakening process felt so exciting because they were part of the savior archetype. For anyone that wants to feel like something bigger themselves this is a very attractive identity, so it will feel like an upgrade from many other life purposes a human can have. The bigger the upgrade it felt like, the more attached to it One may be. (By the way, cults and cult-like communities play into this, all the time, which I'd love to discuss more later, perhaps in another part.) Unless there is an even bigger upgrade available... one that doesn't have the savior/rescuer dynamic but still offers a huge "Aha!" moment for the ego to grab onto with delight, glee and rationally satisfying logic and truth behind it. Incarnating on Earth is done by the Eternal Self for many reasons, including: to bring Source Light, love, compassion, grace, truth and/or wisdom to a reality that is deficient in it, likely picking time spans of tremendous unconsciousness and lack of truth. This isn't about rescuing nor saving the planet, but more so it is holding the lights on in darker times. to check out Earth, no agenda, no mission, no specific purpose other than to "see" for themselves what is going on here. to forget that it is God (there aren't many opportunities in the All that Is to do that!) to embody or even restore something, a value, principal its Eternal Self feels Earth or humanity has forgotten and needs to be sort of turned back on, or reactivated. I met a person this week in private session that has a specific passion for restoring truth and free will within this reality. I feel that is part of my purpose is well and you, too, may be contributing to this. Your Soul Purpose isn't something you find, which is why the incessant seeking can lead to more and more seeking, but little finding. Your incarnation purpose is very much who and what you Are, through your creations, as your Eternal Self and as your human self. In our example, Greg created a purpose that he was here on Earth to awaken humanity. Since that isn't the objective of the many other souls incarnated here, Greg will likely be disappointed with that experience. But, if he isolates himself enough, and focuses only on the outer world that validates his purpose, he may be quite pleased, happy and purposeful ~ awesome. He will likely do a lot of good and beautiful things in the process. It may just not have the overall outcome he envisioned. The more aligned our purpose is with our Eternal Self structure and with what is really going on here in this reality, the more naturally satisfying it can be. Since Greg's Eternal Self structure does not view humanity needing to awaken, Greg is having a more human consciousness experiment than an Eternal Self mission. Again, to our Eternal Selves, humanity allows for unawakened states; this is known, expected and accepted. Earth allows for this. There are levels of protection built into this reality so that any forgetting here does not harm or damage anything at the soul level. Potential question: So we are just doing nothing? None of this matters? Actually not saving the planet isn't not doing anything. Being the Light of God, in your unique way (even if your profession happens to be an engineer) is purposeful enough that it got you here, based on a fully conscious choice of your Eternal Self. If your ego (which is simply the story teller - please don't kill it lol) is still feeling deflated, please consider that Jesus also came here as a Bringer of Light. He did not save humanity. We are just as unawakened, as a human race as before, and He would even say more unawakened then in His times. So, did Jesus fail? Was his role pointless? Was being the amazing light that he was as Jesus not enough to make his life, and his death relevant? Watch out for how your ego may be pushing away these notions, preferring the big, grand story of self that you are part of saving others, rescuing Earth. This is a distortion in our view and makes one more susceptible to manipulation tactics, hierarchical structures and even cult-like communities. Earth is very, very unique. Here we can and do forget that we are God. When we forget that we are God, very strange things can happen. And very beautiful things can happen. And no one can predict what will happen, especially with 1) free will, 2) the wide span of consciousness available/chosen here and relatedly, 3) most don't really know the free will they do have available because their sovereignty is forgotten/misunderstood. I hope that you found this message helpful and useful for clearing away myths, clarifying truths and aligning you more fully with the pure, whole and complete Source energy that you Are. Please consider any questions and feel free to pose them below in the comments section. I will consider them for future posts, for our monthly online event or for responding to below your comments/questions. This a wonderful space for sharing and discussing ideas of sovereignty (just know that I'm very opinionated, based on what I am shown through my own divine connection lol). I have many additional notes from this message, which will come through at some point in additional parts. This topic as you can imagine is huge, and satisfying and I hope you agree. With love, gratitude and blessings, Jill and The Team *since the Eternal Self makes these choices, this is why astrology and numerology both work as divinity tools, particularly with a reader that is aware you are already connected to Source and that Earth is not a school for evolution, but we digress. But re-member you aren't the way you are because of your charts; rather your charts are what they are because of who you are as your Eternal Self and the structures it wanted in place for you, as its human. Please re-read that statement as needed, as it, too, will help you know and recognize your sovereignty, eternally including here. **The Eternal Self is beyond gender. Gender is a convention of the physical realities that require gender specification for procreation. Gender also provides other meaningful and hopefully beneficial definition and distinction between relative forms that further enhance the variety and options available to Souls that choose it. Human language gender pronouns make it natural to engender it's "living" forms. ***Gaia is not our Mother. Gaia is an incarnated Eternal Self who plays the role of Earth inhabitant's planetary consciousness. Based on the previous sub point, you also know that Gaia is not female, as her embodied form nor as her Eternal Self. Planetary beings do not procreate and are beyond gender, same as Star beings, like our Sun (Sol), who is not male and is not our Father. Both Gaia and Sol would love for you to view them as soulful siblings, for you (even as your human) are as inherently valuable and sovereign as they are. In other words, if you love Gaia like a Mother, honoring her, supporting her, even defending her then please also do so for yourself in equal measure. Plus, Gaia feels "she" has things well under control and is far more durable, sustaining and resilient than some humans give her credit. Yes, things aren't perfect and improvements can certainly be made to how humans interact and live on Earth but they certainly aren't as dire as some believe. And crying wolf doesn't tend to go well. **** (which actually means light within)